There are the Peter Braunstein variety of date rape journalists, and there are the Jeff Koinange types. How to tell the two apart? For starters, one wears a fireman costume.

Koinage is (or, was) a CNN correspondent based in Johannesburg, who has been given the nickname "the Kenyan date rape journalist" after his on-the-job behavior (setting up interviews) veered into the territory of inappropriate (harassing interview subjects). As Richard Prince's Journal-isms reports, there are even websites about the whole matter, which include emails sent to CNN International prez Jim Walton from a woman on the receiving end of Koinage's attention.

Fast foward to now-ish, and Koinage (a former NBC News producer and ABC staffer) is no longer employed at CNN. The network isn't talking about the matter, even though it was just two weeks ago that they were broadcasting his mug on Anderson Cooper 360.

While our heart goes out to any victims of Koinage's alleged crimes, all this begs the question: Can you just imagine what this is going to do for struggling foreign bureaus?

And in case the Distant Lovers blog disappears, a copy of Koinage's emails:

Wednesday, 30. May 2007
Please join me again …..

… on my private 'Memory lane' - like so many of

you did yesterday - more than 1.800 people entered

this blog on Tuesday and already now at this early

morning hour (6.15 am my time) more than 750

more entries have been registered ………

It gives me a good feeling to know that so many

of you are 'walking at my side' …………….

So let's continue together ……………

Before one remark: because some of you may

not have read some earlier posts, I continue today

where I stopped yesterday with Jeff still being in

the Sudan for the AC360 Transmission on Darfur

with the Title 'Africa's Misery - the World's Shame'.

———————–

We had had another discussion. Jeff wanted to have a photo from me and I had made the mistake to tell him that I had an enlarged beautiful and very stylish one of me showing me 'naked'.

Of course he then insisted that I should send him this immediately which I refused with the argument that it is very private and personal and I would like to give it to him when we meet (at that time early October the scheduled CNN-Meeting in London was still on to take place at the end of the month so I asked him to wait until then).

But he was not very happy about this and wrote to me:

Ref: Happy but a bit disappointed …..

My darling,

I'm glad you've been watching me ALL DAY and enjoying OUR coverage of events in AFRICA's trouble spots …. glad you feel close, glad you see me talking to YOU …. makes me HAPPY that I'm communicating with you ….. and you with me ….

However, I'm disappointed that you still DON't trust me completely …. you're still HOLDING back …. still don't want me to see what you look like ….. still NOT trusting that YOU'VE already HOOKED me and that I am NOT going anywhere …..

Why is this so? What are you afraid of? Why don't you trust me?

I want you to be able to know that I can't wait to see you, can't wait to be in YOUR ARMS, taste your LIPS, small your SKIN, lick your BODY, make you feel like the WOMAN you are …..

I appreciate your taking also pictures of your house for me. I can just imagine how TASTEFULLY it is done ….. and I can't wait to visit you and do EVERYTHING that you want me to do to you!!!!!!!

Trust me, my SWEET ….. send me that photo ….. I was looking forward to opening up the envelope when I get back to Joburg next Monday ….. now that doesn't look like!!!!!!

YOU want to TEASE me some more ….. you DON't have to, my LOVE ….. you ALREADY have me …. 100-PERCENT!!!!!!!!!

Think about it ….. and know you're MINE and I'm YOURS!!!!!!!!!!

Always …..

JK

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I replied:

… And now I am feeling bad - worse than that - I understand - and to disappoint you is the last I want.

Therefore: you will get the photo - by DHL - next week. How long are you staying in Joburg for sure? It is not that I do not trust you - but this photo is very special.

Are you now happy that you convinced me? The way I feel today, you could ask me anything and I would do it. Does that make sense to you?

In other words, I have lost my head, my heart and my senses - because of you.

Please don't be angry with me - and better tell me, how was your day? Does Andersen Cooper transmit the same time like last night? Should I watch? Will I see you?

How I miss to be able to talk to you.

M.

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He replied 5 minutes later:

Thanks, my LOVE …..

I'll email you shortly about my day ….. I have to now voice my script for today's story ….. you will LIKE this one ….

…. and yes, SAME times like yesterday ….

So you and me together again …. same time, same place …..

I LOVE YOU sooooooooooooooo MUCH!!!!!!!!

JK

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I then wrote to him:

After sent you the last message, I went to sleep for a few hours and here I am again, it is 3.10 am my time - and reading your last message.

Please continue reading this after your transmission this night - maybe later during the day if and when you have some minutes to spare.

It has been very difficult for me to write this.

I had been again on the 'if and if not' road-of-discovery - that's why I was a bit depressed yesterday. Again doubting myself - and being afraid.

This is the reason why I wanted to postpone the sending of that photo.

It was taken abt. 6 years ago. But after that I had put a little bit more weight because of the stress and disappointment, especially when I put together the notes and ideas to write the Book starting abt. 5 years ago.

I realized how and why things in my life had gone wrong and how I missed the chances to change something. I 'retreated' from life and relationships except Sue who always tried to 'bring me back' but also did not succeed much.

Making things worse was the announcement by Paul Muite that he and some others like James Orengo would put pressure on the new Kenyan Government to reopen the investigations on Dr. Ouko if they would be sure that I agreed to come to Nairobo to testify.

My face started to show the signs of stress - and going to Nairobi two years ago and finally finishing the Book, was another stress. And the fact that - again - I did not reach much even when I took the risk to testify since the Kenyan Parliament still refuses to discuss the Sungu Report because of Troon's (and in a certain way also my) hint that Moi was involved in the killing or at least knew about it and had let it happen.

But now, you have brought me back to myself. This is why so many people have started to wonder why and how I have changed so much. I have started to smile again, to laugh again - and I have started to loose weight (why do you think, I go swimming so often?).

I want to be attractive again - for you - only for you.

But still there is the age difference between you and me which scares me too.

But then there are my dreams of making love to you - holding you - satisfying you and you satisfying me.

Sometimes these imaginations bring me up - but very often also down - mainly during the late evening hours before I go to sleep - alone - thinking and feeling how close you have come to me and how lonely I would feel - again - if I would loose you.

I try to push away these fears - but in my mind they are still there and sometimes take over all my thinking - like yesterday.

I always found it very difficult to write about my real feelings. Saying 'I love you' sometimes was very easy - just words - mostly even without meaning ….

But saying 'I am afraid of my feelings' is something else. I have always preferred to put on the mask of a glamorous woman hiding behind perfect dressing and a 'do not come close to me' smile.

You have pulled down this mask and all of the sudden I am realizing how vulnerable I have become again. This scares me a lot.

I do not expect you to hurt me - please do not think that. But I am afraid that life can hurt me now without that protecting shield I had so successfully put around me.

And - mainly - I do not want to loose you - what will happen if you do not find me attractive and I see the disappointment in your face, your eyes?

How will I survive this?

This is the real fear I have - how could I live again without you?

So - please - think carefully if you are willing to take the risk to meet me - maybe we should continue dreaming instead on distance?????

Don't say 'no - no way' - think twice before replying to this. You are facing a very scared woman - trusting you, but definitely not trusting herself.

I have never thought I could write this to you - but seeing you with these women in Darfur and the Congo have given me the assurance that I could.

I love you - and these are not just words - this time there is all my heart (and my fears) behind these three words.

Marianne

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To this he replied almost immediately:

You are a SUPER-WOMAN !!!!!!!!!!!!

… I just woke up having slept at 4 am and since I don't have a LIVE until 6.50 am (my time) I decided to check my mail ….. and I can HONESTLY say ….

I've NEVER read an email so powerful!!!!!!

You remind me of me sometimes …… because I too doubted whether I am good looking enough to be on TV ….. I even grew my hair (it's called Dreads) and somehow no one had a problem with it at CNN (it's funny because my Grandfather would probably think it amazing that I have 'joined' the Mau Mau!!!!! Isn't life interesting?)

Growing up I always thought that maybe I was NEVER good enough ….. and in fact when I went to college to study journalism, I wanted to do strictly RADIO and NOT Television because I didn't think I was good enough for TV ….

But now I have overcome that …. my work speaks for itself and even though I don't look like most people, my work can carry me through on any given day…..

You know how that say BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR BECAUSE YOU MIGHT JUST GET IT?????????

Well, that's what I think you did sometime back ….. you had EVERYTHING in life …. and you achieved EVERYTHING you ever wanted …. did what you did with whom you did because you were ON TOP OF THE WORLD ….. and one day you LOST a part of YOU …..

But the GOOD thing is: that part of you that remained still had some HOPE …. some LIFE …. a second chance …..

Listen, I know you're OLDER than I am …. my first wife was TWENTY years OLDER than me, but we were in LOVE and nobody could stop us then ….. that's LIFE ….. you LIVE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!!!!

I know we will meet ….. and I know we will MAKE LOVE ….. and I KNOW it will BE GOOD ….

Trust me, I know things about people ….. I can tell feelings …. and your feelings are all IN THE RIGHT PLACES ………

Stay focused on what you are doing …. and the REST will fall into PLACE ….

That's ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT!!!!!!!!!!

And remember, SOMEONE in Darfur LOVES and CARES about you very MUCH.

Yours ALWAYS,

JK

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I replied:

Thank you - I was just reading my mail to you again and started to become very sad - then I saw your message and all my senses lifted up again.

You have this power on me - and it scares me because no other man did this before to me. And again, these are not just words.

I do not know what and how you do it - but here I am, longing for you and wanting you.

And do not worry about your looks - you are very attractive (and yes, I saw these 'dreads' and I think they fit you).

Do you realize that I am smiling again now? - You will love the photo.

Now I go swimming and continue 'glowing'.

M.

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He replied immediately:

… Welcome back ….

I'm GLAD the REAL Marianne is BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hang in there …… and NEVER DOUBT WHO OR WHAT YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for watching ….. OUR problems seem MINISCULE compared to OTHER PEOPLE around the WORLD …..

Now then, back to OUR love-making ……

You see, I made you SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JK

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——– TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW ———

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Tuesday, 29. May 2007
GOING BACK ON MY PERSONAL MEMORY LANE

ii HAVE REALIZED THAT i 'JUMPED' SOME DAYS

AND SUBJECTS RAISED ………

sO LET'S GO BACK TO kHARTUM ….

AT THE END OF SEPTEMBER 2006 …

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AFTER WE SPOKE SHORTLY ON THE PHONE,

HE WROTE:

Thanks for your comments ….. and for your 'candid' advice about

'my future' …..

I hope, you will 'play' a part of it …. just like I owe it to my Grandfather, you too 'owe' it to Kenya …. we could strike an agreement ….. i'll give you back your 'house' …. and your life in Kenya …. and MUCH MUCH more ….

Thanks for being my friend, Marianne ….. I don't have too many friends but now I can count on one more …..

…. friend, LOVER, advisor, guru, LOVER …… and on and on and on ………..

Lots of LOVE,

JK

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We then spoke again on the phone and a NEW subject came up:

MAKING LOVE OVER THE PHONE ……..

I told him that I never did this before and don't even know how ….

so if we do - and he insisted we should - he would have to take the 'lead' ….

———–

TO THIS HE WROTE:

'Making Love' ……

Your honesty is 'humbling' ….. and remember, you can always talk to me about anything ….

I will be glad to lead you in this adventure …. and for me it will be an HONOUR to be your 'first' in this …..

.. thank you for doing this with me ….. I shall do my best to 'fulfill' you in every way I can ….

You and I are INTERTWINED now ….. there is NO going back!!!!!!!!!!

Are you ready for the Ride of your LIFE????????

Sleep well, my SWEET Princess ….. and as you lie naked in your bed, think of me sliding in between your parting legs …. and making you feel like you've NEVER felt before ….. up, up and away!!!!!!!!!

Lala salama, my Angel!!!!!

JK

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We had agreed to 'try' this new adventure during the early morning hours when everything around us was quiet and peaceful …..

But when he called as announced and told me that he 'was ready' and then with a very soft and tender voice started to tell me

"……….. just listen to me and do as I tell you ……… take the phone in your left hand …… close your eyes ….. and now with your right hand ………"

I stopped him … telling him that this was not possible for me ……. I am sorry, but I can't do this ………

and put down the receiver ………

He called back and asked if I was o.k. - and I should not worry about him ……. I told him that I could not talk about this on the phone, but I would write and explain.

So I wrote to him in the morning:

… it was my mistake since I never liked to touch myself whem I am alone. I only love it together with a man - but him touching me and me touching him. Only then it is fulfillment for me - so I should have known before starting last night what the result was.

I always regarded doing it without a man at my side like getting drunk alone - hopeless and sad.

So do not feel guilty - it's my problem alone and has nothing to do with you - only that it was our yesterday's talking which was letting me change my mind for once. But having realized the result - nothing - I have decided to go back to 'normal'.

Your voice this morning sounded a bit depressed and nervous ……

M.

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HE THEN WROTE BACK:

PLEASE don't be SORRY —- we're in this together, YOU and ME ….. so let's not start regretting anything ….

I know what you want …. and you know what I want ….. so let's work towards BEING together for each other ….. VERY SOON ……

No 'Sorries' ….. ok???

Lots of LOVE,

JK

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TWO DAYS LATER HE WROTE FROM DARFUR …..

We arrived safely in DARFUR and literally hit the ground running …… we had to shoot a whole story for the first of four programs we're doing for AC360 which should be showing NOW as we speak in the States …. and ALL DAY on CNN International ….

I know you WILL be watching ….. as you ALWAYS do, my LOVE!!!!!!

We slept for three hours …. and are up now getting ready to go meet with the African Union troops to go on patrol ….. they say they'll take us to a village that was attacked about a week ago ….

… don't worry, I'll be careful ….. and I'll be thinking of you ALL DAY!!!!!!!

Stay well, my SWEET Princess ….. and remember, someone in Darfur LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Always,

JK

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I wrote back ……

thanks for your message - you know me in the meantime: worried and afraid for you - not doubting you - so please don't jump.

Yes, I am following the programme - actually since 3 a.m. - and have signed into the Audience Membership of CNN which makes it easier to follow on the computer also.

But all my previous - carelessly - given promises that I write to you nice things cheering you up etc. are gone - sorry - I have seen the situation you are in, the suffering of the people - and I do not find the words to write about my trivial problems (like longing to be with you).

So I fear you have to wait a little bit until I will be able to - but I will - soon.

In the meantime, keep your promise to be careful - and continue thinking about me like I do here - with all my heart ….. and body …..

….. and all my love,

M.

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The following day - actually night - he wrote:

Another loooooooooong Day!!!!!!!!!

It's 3.40 am and I've just woken up ….. we've been working again all day and have just sent our story for today and managed to get three hours sleep ….. we'll be going LIVE in two hours …. I have TWO LIVES …. one at 5.30 am (my time) and again at 6.40 am …. and then at 8.30 am we begin working at our story for tomorrow ….. or is it this evening?

What a LIFE!!!!! And someone once said this is all about SHOWBIZ!!!!!! But like you said, I was born to do this …… to gain the trust of 'women', to tell their stories …. to be the VOICE of the VOICELESS!!!

For my first LIVE, they'll be replaying the STORY I did last May in CONGO on those women RAPE VICTIMS …..

PLEASE check it out if you can ….. and tape it ….. it will make your skin CRAWL!!!!!

Thanks for watching the story today …. thanks for taping it …. thanks for your observations …. and MOST OF ALL, thanks for being there for ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE you and MISS you TERRIBLY!!!!!!!!!!!

Yours ALWAYS,

JK

———————————————————————

Later I wrote:

….. Yes and you told me not to worry when you informed me about going on patrol ….

Seeing your Report, I got scared like hell …..

I knew it ….. you are in danger …. just admit it to yourself …….

…….. and leave the praying to me.

With all my love,

M.

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He wrote back:

No Danger ………..

I know, you're with me ….. and PRAYING for me …. what more can a man ASK for?????

Thanks for watching …. at least someone is watching who APPRECIATES what I do ….

Lots of LOVE,

JK

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—-TO BE CONTINUED TOMORROW - WEDNESDAY ——
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Monday, 28. May 2007
stsarting or trying to start the Healing Process ….

I do not want to give the impression

to look for your pity, so I prefer to

continue with putting down the texts

of our emails - content of our phone calls -

and 'nothing else' - maybe this way you

will understand even better what this

whole story is all about …………

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Khartoum, Oct. 7, 2006

I was worried after he told me that they

got arrested and tried to call him - but the

hotel (Hilton) told me that they could not

put me through to him.

He then wrote to me:

Sorry, my Darling, I was actually on

the phone with the people of the French

Television …….. LIVE with the Television

Normandy at this Award Ceremony …. they were

announcing that I just won TWO awards in the

PRIX Bayeux, a very PRESTIGIOUS FRENCH award ….

You are the FIRST to know now …….

even before my wife ………

I'll call you shortly ……

Sorry, I couldn't call earlier …. we got in at about the

time the INSIDE AFRICA was showing ….

JK

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see the annexed album 'Prix Bayeux-Photo'

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He then called a little bit later - he told me - as usual that he loves me - and wanted me to tell him that I love him - when I hesitated, he got upset and told me that he would take a few days 'off'……… I tried to laugh and not taking him serious,

but then I wrote:

You heard me laughing - because I have come to my senses again.

Let's take a little bit distance - let's carry on with our own life - like you said, you take some days off and will call me sometimes next week.

That's also a hint for me that feel the same " too close - too fast ".

I love you - that's a fact.

I want you - that's another fact.

But let's wait a few days and then decide how and if we continue.

I will leave the decision to you.

If you decide that we cut - I will accept ……………

Marianne

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Jeff then replied a few hours later:

Ref.: Too 'paranoid' again !!!!!!!!!!!

Sitting at the lounge at the Khartoum Airport ….. it's 2.30 am my time …. we've checked in all our 16 pieces of luggage and we're finally in the Business Class lounge …. our flight leaves (as you know) at 3.45 am ….

As usual, you're JUMPING to conclusions …. but then again, that's just you …. I can't really OUSH that part of you …. until you're ready to TRUST!!!!!!

It's been a GREAT week …. someone in my position COULDN'T have asked for a BETTER week ………

I ask that you be HAPPY for me ….. and celebrate with me (I wish we could do it physical) ….. have a glass of wine for me ….. and I'll TOAST to you …. and even have a cigar on you ………..

Think GOOD thoughts, my SWEET …….

WE shall MEET ….. and SOON ….. so if you're the ONE that's NOT ready, then tell me ……….

I missed your voice this week …… and was HAPPY to chat with you if but for a few minutes………

JK

——————-

PLEASE LET ME STOP FOR NOW - I REALIZE THAT TODAY IS NOT A 'GOOD DAY' FOR ME TO CONTINUE …………..

——- AS THEY SAY: TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY ———– SO LET'S AGAIN 'MEET' TOMORROW ————

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… having come back …..

Having just come back from the Doctor

having had to endure some very intimate

examinations (all women out there will know

what I am talking about - that 'special chair'

to examine the intimate parts of a woman

has been and still is the greatest offensce to

women ….. at least, I alweays felt like that ….)

Still - it seems - I am lucky - at leat for now, since the

final result on the HIV-testing is still pending since it wil

take another 3 - 4 months ………….

But my Doctor - who luckily is also a personal friend -

told me that Jeff must have known very well about this

Herpes-Infection since he believes that his is the reason

why he and his wife did not have a child although being

married since more than 8 years ……..

…. only since a short time ago, special antibiotics can reduce

the reaction of Herpes in the sperm of a man and at least

reduce the eventual damage this infection can cause to the

baby ………

Although even now there still remains a risk —

But I pray that their child will be born healthy and free of risk …………….. and

believe me this to be an honest pray for his wife and his baby …..

But there was another advise my Doctor (and friend) gave to me:

"Continue taking about it …. 'healing' includes 'mind and body' - and talking about it and reaching out to other women who have endured the same you did, will help you …. and in going through your correspondence with Jeff, it will help you to understand ….. to realize how and why all this happened …

Only then your body - and also your mind - will begin to come to rest ….. and if you can help other women to 'heal' too, that's even better ….."

I agreed to his advise …. and I have therefore decided to continue ….

I hope, you are joining me ….

…. along 'memory lane' ….. which I will continue to 'walk' from tomorrow onwards ……

For today, I need a break and some rest.

I am sure, you will understand ………

Marianne Briner

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Bad News …..

As I had told you last week, I have

gone to make medical tests -

On Saturday I received an urgent

phone call by my Doctor and now -

in one hour - I have an appointment

to see him.

It seems that the injury I got

in London is not healing well and he

thinks that this might be connected

to the Herpes-Infection Jeff had and

still has (see the communication to

Kumekucha by a woman talking about

this… and as she rightly said, it cannot

be cured …….).

Although - luckily - I do not show any

signs of Herpes myself, my Doctor

suggests to make a strong antibiotic-

cure just to be sure and to finally try

to heal also that injury ……….

——————–

So please understand that my mind is

a little bit destracted for the moment.

But I will continue with my blog either

later this evening or for sure tomorrow.

Thanks for your understanding ……..

—-

I had started this morning with a new post -

but somehow - being too nervous - I pressed

the 'wrong' button - so it seems the content

got 'lost' …………..

M.B.
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Saturday, 26. May 2007
in case you are disappointed …..

…………..not to find a new post -

because of the high demand - I have

decided to continue also today …..

although it is a weekend which I

wanted to use to 'take a rest' ……

———-

So here we are ……………… and please

be patient - join me on 'my personal road

of memories contained in emails …..'

I hope you will understand me more when

reading them ………….

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….. going back to October 6, 2006

…… Darfur ……

Jeff wrote:

… sorry, my LOVE …. it's been a HECTIC day … but I don't want to ruin the moment as I want you to watch the SHOW today ….

But simply put, we flew to the headquarters of the Janjaweed Arab Militia and didn't even get past the airport ….. we were turned back despite the fact that we had all the necessary paperwork …. the reason, you'll just have to watch the SHOW …..

Otherwise, I am fine and back in El Fasher and will be LIVE around 5.27 am (my time) and again just before the SHOW ends in the following hour …..

I miss you and LOVE you much and hope you had a GREAT day ….

JK

P.S. I'm imagining you 'SHAVED' and thinking some VEY DIRTY thoughts …… I hope, it's CLEANLY shaved (what they call a 'Brazilian wax'). That way, it's SMOOTH and makes LICKING 'sweeter' and the sensation even more ENYOYABLE !!!!!!!!!

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Remark to the 'shaving' subject:

Jeff had asked me if 'I was shaved' at a certain part of my body ………. I was shocked since I never in my life ever thought about this nor did I even know that this question could ever arise ……….. he explained (on the phone) that he enjoyed 'to make love' with his tongue and that being shaved gives him more pleasure ……………… and gave me the advise to do it 'brasilian style' asking me to take information about this with 'Beauty Experts' ……………….

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youMarianne:
Coming back to the other subject raised: thanks for the advise on the 'wax' procedure… I will try to do my best ……….. but no promise since I never did and never ever thought about doing this …. to be honest, I did not even know that this is existing ….. call me 'old-fashioned' - but that's the way I am ………

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Jeff:

We are just getting ready now for the program … one more SHOW and then we can get some rest —– there is NO AC360 tomorrow ……..

But we'll be working on other stories (and OPRAH WINFREY has requested me to do a special report for her from Darfur)…….

So if you think you've had ENOUGH of me, think again …….

I LOVE YOU ….. and 'see you' on TV in a few minutes ….

JK

P.S. 'Wax' is GREAT ….. you'll LOVE it …. I have this feeling !!!!!!!!!!!!!

And then I can be your FIRST in this 'new phase' !!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Marianne:

… no way - I will never have 'enough' of you ……………..

—————————

Jeff:

… Hope you enjoyed the story ….. I'm off to sleep in a couple of minutes …..

'Showbiz' is getting a little 'TIRING' !!!!!!!!!

Thinking of ME in YOU as I go to Dreamland !!!!!!!!!!

Kiss, kiss - my ANGEL !!!!!!!!!!

JK

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Jeff (Oct. 6, 2006):

I think our reports are getting to these PEOPLE …. we got arrested this afternoon just as we were doing some stuff for INSIDE AFRICA …..

As usual they wanted to see our paperwork (which we produced) and they still drove us to the Central Police Station …..

BASTARDS ….. and kept us for two hours until right before IFTA (the breaking of the fast) and then they let us go ….

You can just imagine how PISSED off I was …..

FUCKING FASCISTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so pissed-off but I realize that's what they want ….. and our stories are being seen around the workd and that's beginning to bother them ….

It's going to be interesting when we try to leave the country Saturday night/Sunday morning ………….

Maybe they'll be ONLY too happy to see us GO !!!!!!!!!

What a FUCKING DAY ………. sometimes I just wish there weren't days like this ….

But hey, the GOOD balances out the BAD !!!!!!!!!!!

How was your day, my LOVE ??????????

Hope, it was better than mine !!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU,

JK

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Marianne:

………….I am scared to death ……. I am praying for you and think about you every second …..

M.

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Jeff:

Thanks, my LOVE ………. I'll be fine ……….. believe me, I've been in worse situations before ….. I'll be fine !!!!!!!!

JK

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…………………be patient ……………………

- I will continue on Monday as promised ………….

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Thanks to all my Readers ….

Although the 'real blog' will

continue on Monday (please allow

me a 'break' over the weekend),

I wish to inform you that this blog

has yesterday broken all records:

It was chosen 'blog of the day'

since its 'traffic' reached almost

1.000 (one thousand) clics in one

day, i.e. almost 1.000 people have

joint to read it ….. just in one day….

and although I did not add any new

information today, the 'traffic' right now

(Saturday, at 8 am !!!!!) has reached again

already 500 clics…..).

This is unbelievable and it gives me

the assurance that I am on the right

track and I will continue ….. not only

for me but for everybody out there

having experienced what I did and maybe

it will help all of us to know that there

are many people in the world following

this story as it develops……….

Thank you all - from the bottom of my heart.

Marianne Briner
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Friday, 25. May 2007
——PART 2 ————-

STILL ON JANUARY 22, 2007 ………

Jeff:

….YES now I am really smiling …… and my SICK MIND is thinking, what IF I can make LOVE to both - mother and daughter - at the same time ….. TOGETHER !!!!!!!!

NOW THAT'S A FANTASY like NO OTHER !!!!!!!!!!!!

Your turn to smile !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JK

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Marianne:

…… yes, I am smiling but I am not surprised ……………

I knew, your phantasy would start racing - and your imaginations too.

But no promise on this subject - let's see………

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Jeff:

Ha Ha Ha …… at least you are keeping this option OPEN …..

I like that …..

NOW it's up to me NOT to disappoint you !!!!!!!!!!!!

But just imagine the 'Menage a Trois? !!!!!!!!!!!

Encroyable !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

…. and tell your daughter, I would also LOVE to make love to HER ….. after 'Mami' of course ….. and if she wants to see the 'Doctor's' note, I will happily do so …..

SMILE !!!!!!!!!!!

JK

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Marianne (Jan. 23, 2007):

Although I promised to let you work, I felt I should give you an explanation for that 13 years 'neutral period'.

It all started in Tanzania when the wife of the then President Mwinyi had tkane over the patronage of the Aids-Orphans-Foundation 'Bonite' and asked me if I would be interested to represent it in Europe. I agreed and got the offical documents signed by Fatma Said Ali, Minister of State Office of the President.

Since the whole subject of Aids was something I had heard and read but never really kne about, she took me to some hospitals and this was the most shocking and sad experience of my life. You know how it is - so you will understand.

I then realized how careless and stupid I had been in the past. Some relationships and even one-night-stands without thinking much about eventuyal consequences.

Yes, with 'good' people or at least to be regarded like that. Byt what did 'good' mean and how could I have been really sure?

So my mind was made up …. no more 'playing around'…..

Now you know the whole story……………

M.

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Jeff:

….. Honesty is the best policy ……

Darling …. no hiding ……..

Just about to finish your book ………..

Amazing story-telling ………….

You capture Kenya like no one I have ever known ………

NICE JOB, my Sweet !!!!!!!!!!

JK

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Marianne:

………. I got up at 5 am - I love these early hours with everything quiet around me - although of course, I could imagine something better to do than to work ….. but I can 'survive' until London ……..

Now that you have read my story, you will have realized that I try to preserve all the food memories about the two most important men in my Kenyan life (two upto the moment you entered into my life, of course ….)

Besides all the bad things, there are still many good things worth to remember and I prefer to think about these and to forget the rest. Especially regarding Moi - I try to separate the man I knew from the President he turned out to be mainly during the last 10 years of his rule.

Why I say this? Because you once asked 'and what will you say about me - if ….'

M.

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——————– to be continued (on Monday) - I promise ………………………….

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HIV - but mainly some 'crazy' Jeff Koinange Dreams ….. - part 1 -

To keep my mind off the question:

What will the Medical Results finally

tell me? - I started to read my correspondence

with Jeff regarding this starting in the middle

of January after we knew that the CNN-

Executive-Meeting was finally taking place

in London in February.

But to give you a 'complete' picture of his

'state of mind' I also include the rest of our

correspondence.

Please keep in mind when reading this that

this is a 'happily married man' - a man whose

wife is expecting their first child ……… something

I did not know about since he never mentioned

anything ….. to me he gave the impression NOT

to be happy and therefore being interested to

also meet my daughter knowing her closeness

to Dr. Mungai …………….

But read for yourself and mainly, judge for

yourself - and maybe forget to 'paint' me as the

only 'guilty' one -

Don't forget, it always takes two to 'play the game'……..

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January 22, 2007

Jeff wrote:

How's my Swiss Princess this morning???? Hope you're feeling well and ready to tackle the week …..

I finally got some rest …. and a real bed to sleep in and some real food to eat!!!!!

I'm now back in the office and working on a copuple of things ….. I have a story on 'Sex Slaves' in Uganda and then I may be going to Nigeria later this week to do another story ….. so you can see I'm keeping myself nice and busy until the 19th of February ….. with you in London ……..

By the way, I didn't tell you that on my last day in Nairobi just before I was checking out at the Norfolk, guess who walks in ????? TOTAL MAN !!!!!!!!!

As usual, he walked up to me and gave me a BIG HUG (again, I wanted to run back to my room to take s shower) …. I also wanted to pass him your book and say, I just got a copy and wonered if he'd heard about it ….. but since you'd signed it personally to me, I didn't want him to 'make the connection between you and me'!!!!!!!!

But if you want me to pass a copy with your 'BEST REGARDS', pleae let me know ….. I can always be your 'messenger'!!!!!

I miss you so MUCH ………. and can't wait to finally meet you, talk with you, laugh with you ….. and MOST OF ALL ….. MAKE MAD, PASSIONATE LOVE TO YOU ….. AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JK

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Marianne:

…… if you want to be my 'messenger', you can bring a copy to Moi - what do you think? Because I do not think that Biwott can even read - at least not English!!!!!!!

You are impossible - and you know it too well. You really like this subject of 'love-making' - true?

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Jeff:

How about this for a TITLE ………….. MARIANNE, MOI and ME !!!!!!!!!!

Ha Ha Ha ……………………………..

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Marianne:

…… maybe …… but are you sure ???????????

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Jeff:

….. am I sure about what ??????????????

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Marianne:

that he can compete with you - or you compete with him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Smile !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Jeff:

Now, ONLY you would KNOW about that ……. but I know, he doesn't EAT PUSSY ….. and I DO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ha Ha Ha ………. so at least I'm already ahead of the GAME there ……..

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Marianne:

Now you finally reached what you may have inteneded from the beginning when starting this subject …….. I am blushing ………

I am glad I am going swimming later - that will 'clean' my thoughts, I hope ….

You are definitely too dangerous for keeping me on the track of serious working……

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Jeff:

Now that my 'JOB' is done ………. you can go back to WORK !!!!!!!!!

Talk later, my LOVE……..

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….. to be continued WITH PART 2 later today …..

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Thursday, 24. May 2007
Thank you - I am really impressed ……

Thank you - I would never have expected

this reaction to my yesterday's mail ……….

Thank you from the bottom of my heart …

I am now convinced - as my Kenyan friend had

put it - that carry on with my blog will help also

others to come out and - maybe - will also assist

them to put their scary past behind them ….

and let me assure you that you are all 'in my heart

and my soul' - we are all 'sisters' in this and always

will be ……………………..

Thank you so much ————

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So I will continue with my blog - giving you an 'insight' into my correspondence with Jeff - making you understand how everything could have happened - until the very end ………………………

I beg you to join me on this road of 'discovery' ….. since it is also helping me … maybe not to understand but maybe to survive this very difficult period of my life …….

So I am asking you to be patient ….. to be compassionate ….. but most of all to be 'on my side' because I am on 'yours' ……….

With these thoughts in mind, I have the courage to go on and to continue giving you an 'insight' into our very intimate corespondence ….. maybe with reading this, you will be able to understand ……..

At least that's what I am hoping to achieve …………………..

—————————————————————————On October 5, 2006, I wrote:

I have been again on the 'if and if not' road-of-disvoery - that's why I was a bit depressed yesterday. Again doubting myself - and being afraid.

I always found it very difficult to write about my real feelings. Saying 'I love you' sometimes was very easy - just words - mostly even without meaning …

But saying 'I am afraid of my feelings' is something else…. I have always preferred to put on the 'mask' of a glamourous woman hiding behind perfect dresssing and a 'do not come close to me' smile.

But you have pulled down that mask and all of the sudden I am realizing how vulnerable I have become again. And this scares me a lot ……….

I do not expect you to hurt me - please do not think that - but I am afraid that life can hurt me now without that protecting shield I had so successfully put around me……………..

Jeff replied the same day (Oct. 15, 2006( ……..

I am GLAD the REAL MJB is BACK!!!!!!!!!

Hang in there ………… I NEVER EVER DOUBT who or what you are !!!!!!!!

OUR problems seem MINISCULE compared to OTHER PEOPLE around the WORLD …….

Count your BLESSINGS …. and THANK GOD for what you HAVE !!!!!!!

Now then, back to OUR LOVE MAKING …………………………..

You see, I made you SMILE !!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JK

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I wrote the same day - to be correct the same night:

Before I go to sleep again - contrary to you I guess - I went out of my terrace and looked at the full moon shining so peacefully here and started wondering about you - these people in Darfur around you and the crazy world in general.

It is so peaceful here - why cannot it be like that everywhere?

And then I also started thinking and you can keep me on this promise:

whatever you and me decide in the future, let us fill it with love and tenderness - no matter what ……..

where there is so much pain and suffering, let us make a difference - not only in our life, but also in the life of others ……

Can we agree on that?????

With all my heart,

Marianne

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To this Jeff replied - still at 5.26 am (in the middle of the night) ………….

DEAL ………………

and my WORD is my BOND …. simply put, it means I PROMISE!!!!!!!!!!

The moon is FULL here too ………. This world can be so BEAUTIFUL yet so UGLY !!!!!!!!

Sleep well, my LOVE ………….

Talk to you later, my SWEET PRINCESS …. and sleep well…. with me in your thoughts !!!!!

ALWAYS YOURS,

JK

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